DEEP obsession with HEATH LEDGER...?

Ok Ok.....so I know this sounds very strange, especially coming from a 22yrold woman/girl, but.....I am oddly enough OBSESSED with Heath Ledger now. I can't say I was back when he was alive, I always thought he was hot, but I never spent hours watching his interviews, going opening night to see his latest film, or reading all about him! I can not stop this fascination I have with him, and everywhere I turn these days I am either seeing a picture of him or hearing his name, either through the media or through friends/family/coworkers. I have this crazed fasination with him, and I can't come to grips with the fact that he is no longer alive. It's so surreal. How could such a fasinating person and incredible actor go under the radar in hollywood for so long....it was as if he wasn't an "A LIST" actor until after he died. I think *I* and many other people missed out on such an amazing and talented man. I have been crying watching his interviews! He can't be gone, it's not right.