I dont feel pleasure when i finger myself?Scared! help.please!?

okay so i have my own way of well . but it doesnt involve putting my finger inside of my or even touching that specific area. i do something with the oris anywho. i really want to be able to.feel.pleasure when i do that. but i dont understand why i dont. i have a boyfriend and we were planing on doing well and what not. but im scared im not gonna feel anything when he inserts his finger. also when i do decide to the big thing. which will be years from now.. im scared i wont feelanything when a is inserted in me... is there anyway to get that feeling. maybe i just need someone else to do it for.me? like maybe ill feel smething when my boyfriend does it? i need some help here . bytheway i apologiz for any typos i am.on my phone so its very hard to type.